I made a lot of shitty mistakes that left me in the predicament I’m in.
I can’t change the past so fuck it.
A big part of recovery is learning to give your body what it wants, rather than what you think it should want :
If you want a chocolate bar, no amount of rice cakes and fat free cottage cheese is going to satisfy you. If you feel like a chocolate bar, then allow yourself to have a damn chocolate bar! Listen to your body, not your disorder.